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senses

you say

nothings wrong

but i can sense

a shift

in energy

between my bones

-XOXO chana

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boi

i am done suffering alone

you’ve had

plenty of time

to make up

your stupid mind

yet

each night your probably with your bois

laughing

at the hurt

you caused

-XOXO chana

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strangers

i’ve become

a stranger

to my own body

i dont recognize

my self

no more

gone are the traces

of my old self

-XOXO chana

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the key

6 months 

since I called it quits 

but I still find you on my mind 

every second of every day 

why? 

your love was

the key to mending my broken soul 

without you 

i feel lost 

i’m walking

down a dark road 

in the desert 

slowly dying 

starving —

craving

your attention 

but all I hear 

is radio silence 

-XOXO chana

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season of sadness

the spirit of 

this wonderful time 

of year is gone 

joy and happiness 

doesn’t fill the air 

instead 

all that surrounds me is

loneliness and despair 

i can’t help but 

grieve the loss of you 

my partner

best friend 

other half 


oh —

i would give 

anything and everything

to have you back 

here 

with me 

this christmas

-XOXO chana  

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meet me

meet me at midnight

at the spot we first held hands

6 months sober

from your intoxication

no need for AA

because I got my gyals


you’ve had plenty of time

to own up to your mistakes –

apologize for your actions

reconcile what we had

yet each night

your probably with your bois

doing stupid shit


meet me at midnight

one last time

— XOXO chana

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end.

with every 

passing day 

i lose a piece of myself 

surrounded

by chaos 

and destruction 

the weary path 

i walk 

is leading me astray 

i’m left

drowning in my thoughts 

hoping it all 

e n d s

-XOXO chana

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to the one who got away

though you put me through hell

thank you for being you

thank you for giving me my firsts

first kiss, first boyfriend, first love

in the end you broke me

leaving me to mend my shattered heart

yet,

i wouldn’t go back and change a thing

i learnt a lot from our time together

give your partner the right amount of space

never leave a fight unresolved

but also not to easily trust

not everyone will be by your side

and everything inevitably seems to end

i still find my self checking up on you

now it breaks my heart to say

i may have let the one slip away

maybe next time

me and my anxiety

won’t fuck things up

-XOXO chana

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¿ f o r e v e r ?

you were once

my everything

my light on a gloomy day

i remember

our late night chats

about our future

we talked about ‘ f o r e v e r ‘

everything is

sinking in now

the person I once

wanted to come home to

is now a

distant memory

of the past

-XOXO chana

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would you ?

if I needed your loving

would you comfort me ?

if I needed you

would you drop everything and rescue me ?

if I had disappeared

would you miss me ?

if I was stuck in jail

would you bail me out ?

if I were breathing my last breath

in my final moments

would you rush to pay me a visit ?

if I were gone

would you visit my grave?

-XOXO chana

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